Monday, January 5, 2009

So Far, Not So Good

We had a wonderful time with some of our comedy buddies yesterday but then I came home, saw pictures of myself from the party, had an anxiety attack and wound up sitting up until 2 AM watching E's True Hollywood Story of High School Musical's Zac Efron which is pathetic since Zac Efron wasn't even born when I was in high school.

Maybe I've been taking too much cold medicine.

I really wanted to wake up today with a sparkling, optimistic attitude combined with a renewed enthusiasm for 2009. Instead, I despise my new haircut, feel like I'm finally showing my age and obsessing about my mini-muffin top.

I hope it's the cold medicine.

Last year was terrible in so many ways. Yet in an effort to let go of all the negativity of 2008, I had to relive some of its worst moments. Add a headful of snot and you have the Insecurity Perfect Storm.

Since I can't change others or keep bad things from happening, I'll start by controlling what I can. Today, I'll get rid of my gray roots, go for a walk/jog and cut out butter. Maybe I'll exfoliate as well. Since working from the inside/out seems to be failing, I'll try from the outside/in.

Oh yeah, and I'll stop taking cold medicine just in case.


ReformingGeek said...

I loved your cruise diary. I'm a big fan of Royal Caribbean and one of these days I'd like to take that cruise. Hubby and I also like to find the deck with nobody and just veg and read.

Hope you feel better soon.

Traci Skene said...

Thanks. I feel better after a good cry, a long talk, a brisk walk and a six dollar bottle of hair dye. I think my husband and I finally realized that, no matter how hard you try, you just can't rush the mourning process.

Cruising was the first time we've relaxed since the beginning of April. I can't wait to go back.

If you do take this cruise, you should book a tour for Antigua. It's not the kind of island you want to explore on your own.

Plus, it seems worth hiring a taxi to explore the beaches in St. Lucia. If we go back, that's certainly something we'll do.